yo ...no mood these few days .,..for dunno what reason i felt like so .......unhappy ..?

so got the instrument that i am playing in CO as my CCA playing the ' ruan 'the thing is like so heavy ..? and the case is so bigg.then like when i take the bus home it occupys lots of space on the bus ......FAITH I MISS YOU BADLY =( ..life without you is like so wierd ,...espically at school ....haix ....so diffcult to find a true friend which really understand you and share your feelings with you and lend an listening ears to you when you are unhappy or sad ....It is really diffcult ....and i dun really enjoy / like / used to secondary school life ...and the people around me ........=( ...=[